you know me, i laugh and i like to fun i make light of sad things and i smile when i cry but when it's just you and me all i feel is heavy i've been trying for months to make sense of this grief and the pain in my gut saying that i should run away well, today i know why because there was always somebody else right at the beginning, the middle and the end yes, there was always somebody new or somebody old from your hometown or mine every step of the way i was losing you i feel like like a fool waiting around for you shutting everyone out and ignoring the signs while you're out for the third time this week i stay up, i drink wine, and i lie to my friends i call you six times, it's 5.30 again i'm just wasting my life away because there was always somebody else right at the beginning, the middle and the end there was always somebody new or somebody old from your hometown or mine every step of the way i was losing you that's why you wouldn't hold my hand in ce...