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you know it's bad if i'm here again.

how long can i ride the wave until it stops being okay
until it's not funny anymore to anyone else

feel a little less, burn a little less, i need to live a little less
nerve endings and a longing that's never ending
i'm pretty sure it's never ending

one last round. although i cannot promise that i will try
i'd love to say that it's been too long and that i'm numb
i never imagined it could get this bad.

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